Sometimes, when things get really tough for me, I sit down at my desk and I open my journal to the next available blank page, and I fill the page with all of the thoughts and feelings that describe me at that moment.
I realize that the page is usually filled in no time with words that have slid right out of my head and off of my lips so that I can hear whatever it is that I end up connecting to my fingers and pen.
When I'm done, I'm able to look at the page and see the places that I scribbled or messed up and I'm able to feel what I felt when I was writing it, or feel whatever made me want to write it down and keep it. I find every reason to appreciate every word that I wrote down and I slip it into my heart.
What I'm saying is that acquiring the appreciation of life's smaller things should be in everyone's head. It should be taught to us as infants, climbing out of the womb, and instilled into our heads as we grow older until eventually, it becomes second nature to us. We should be able to appreciate everything in our lives as they are, not as they used to be or how they will be in the future. We should be able to appreciate all of the decisions we've made and the places we've slept without feeling like we've lost a little bit of ourselves.
We have to know how to appreciate the bad things in life, like getting caught in the rain on your way to a job interview or looking unprepared for something that is so important and worthwhile. Having the ability to appreciate these things gives us the chance to make our lives extraordinary. We are able to see that we're not meant to have all good things in life. Expecting becomes much easier to dwindle out of our lives.
I guess you have to have the bad days in order to appreciate the good ones.
So here I am, appreciating what’s there, appreciating the smiles because the frowns are too common, and appreciating that all I have in this world is the small, dim ember that is burning inside of me, yearning to be seen from miles away someday.
“But every time you walk away, I could never, never find the words to make you stay, but I’ll try come sunrise.”
:) this is so true. Maybe its just me being a visual person but, i could picture everything that you wrote. So that's a plus :) You definitely have to have some bad days to appreciate the good ones. I love just sitting outside and watching everything in front of me because it's always nice to take your self out of the action and just watch.
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